On My Heart
Wednesday, February 19, 2014
So can I be honest? I have been feeling kind of small and insignificant lately. A bit invisible. Sometimes I wonder how my life is making an impact on this world. And it's not because I feel like I'm missing out on some big important career outside of the home. Like I have to save lives or be a missionary in Africa, or attempt to change the world as a politician. In fact, I have never been more sure of my calling as a stay-at-home mom in this current season of my life. But if I'm truly at peace with that calling, why do I often feel so small? Why do I often feel like this blog adds nothing but noise to the internet? Why can't I translate my thoughts into eloquent words? Why do I still fall into the thinking that productivity equals value? Or that I constantly fall short in my role as a wife, mother, and friend? Why do I let a good book, or verse, or piece of wisdom settle deep into my heart only to forget it the next day and never choose to apply it?
I'm clinging to God's promise that I am seen and loved. I believe that with all my heart. I believe that I am His daughter. Adopted. Sought after. Ransomed. Cherished.
And it's not because of anything I do to earn it.
And I think I forget that God is working through me in many ways I am unaware of. Because the truth is, if we are seeking God in our simple daily lives, then we are making an impact on our world. Our circles of influence may be big or small but it doesn't matter. If we are choosing to abide and walk freely in His love then we are doing what we were created to do. Jesus already saved the world. That is not my role. My role is to abide.
I love this quote from a favorite author...
"I don't believe there is one great thing I was made to do in this world. I believe there is one great God I was made to glorify. And there will be many ways, even a million little ways, I will declare his glory with my life. " - Emily P. Freeman, excerpt from A Million Little Ways