How many years did He plan this?
Wednesday, September 4, 2013
I was listening to a song recently by Britt Nicole called "Seeing For the First Time". The song is about a moment when the singer felt God's presence and love so deeply that she's never felt more alive. She sings about how she wants to stay there, in that perfect place, and linger for as long as possible. Like she's opened her eyes for the first time and she wants to see more. More of His perfect love for her. More of His glory.
A few months ago I visited my happy place, which is Hilton Head, South Carolina. And every morning of our stay, I went for a jog on the beach around 6:45am. I snuck out of the beach house while my family was still sleeping, put on my headphones, pounded my tennis shoes into the sand with each stride, and watched the sun kiss the ocean's edge. I remember one morning, I felt God's presence so close that I just started to weep. I was overcome and undone. I had to stop running, close my eyes, and just praise Him. I just spoke softly over and over "God thank you. Thank you. Thank you. Thank you for loving me. Thank you for meeting me here." I didn't want it to end.
That morning, He wanted me to be struck down and blindsided and utterly surrounded by His love. I think God wants this for us often. I think He wants us to see with our spiritual eyes and be overcome by Him.
I took a photo with my phone the morning this happened so I would always remember it.
I love how in that same Britt Nicole song she writes about a moment very similar to this and asks the question, "How many years did You plan this moment here, To show me how You love me?"
Ohhhh the beauty of those words. I think God absolutely plans those special moments for us! He longs for intimate moments where we are awestruck by Him. Where we let go of distractions and care to linger. How many years ago did He decide to meet me on that beach, at that moment? How long had He anxiously awaited my reaction? Like a doting father who makes his daughter melt by his lavish love and attention, God too has adopted me and chosen me and expends His love on me.
Who am I that He plans those moments for me??
Listen to the song here: